Monday, March 31, 2008

Party Pics

We had the girls' party on Sunday and it was a success! Here are some pics...

The table centerpieces I made from chipboard coasters. Some of the goodie bags the girls gave to everyone.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Three Years Ago Today...

My girls were born. Seems just like yesterday.

The first week of March, 2005 I officially started my maternity leave, on the request of my doctor; and for the fact that I gained a good 65 pounds, could barely walk a flight of steps and I could barely fit my belly behind the wheel of my car. Yes, I was ready to take a little break before the babies arrived. I had a relatively easy morning sickness what-so-ever. It was beautiful. But on March 24, 2005 I started getting a sharp pain in my stomach, kind of like when you get the wind knocked out of you. Just a dull ache right above my belly button. I chalked it up to, well, pregnancy. I thought maybe one of the girls were in a weird position or something. What did I know...this was my first pregnancy! Well, the next morning the pain was still there and was getting worse. I called my doctor first thing and my husband took me to see him. I talked to him for a few minutes and he told me to head straight to the emergency room and he'd meet me there. Ok, I started freaking because I was only 32 weeks along. Twins are usually born around 36 weeks. As we got to the hospital and I was strapped up to a bunch of machines, I was told that my liver was swelling and the only way to relieve it was to have the babies. I so wasn't ready yet. The BABIES weren't ready yet. But I had no choice. The hospital where I live was not equipped to handle preemie twins so I was rushed to The Cleveland Clinic by ambulance about an hour away. What a joy ride that was. I got to the hospital and they put me on some friggin' drug that put me in a fog and made my face itch like crazy. I hated it. Especially because my husband went and picked up my mom so she could be with me. So I was there by myself, on drugs, scared to death. But they finally made it and I felt so much better with them both there.

After a very long day, at 7:40 p.m., my sweet Ashley came along, and at 7:42 p.m., my sweet Emily made her grand entrance into the world. They remained in NICU for a month, but did very well. My husband and I drove to the hospital just about every night after he got off of work. We put quite the miles on my new "mommy van". We brought them home a month later. After everything I went through, it was so worth it. Those girls are everything to me.

I came across this poem and boy does it hit home. I couldn't find the author's name, but in honor of my girls turning 3, and my 3rd year being a mom, I wanted to share it.

Before I Was a Mom

Before I was a Mom
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom
I slept as late as I wanted
And never worried about how late
I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom,
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to lullabies.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been pooped on,
Spit up on,
Chewed on,
Peed on,
Or pinched by tiny fingers.

Before I was a Mom,
I had complete control of myself;
My thoughts,
My body,
And my mind.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so that doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't
want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew something so small could affect my
life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of having my
heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a
Mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of
the night every ten minutes to make
sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
The joy,
The love,
The heartache,
The wonderfulment,
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so
much before I was a Mom.

**Happy Birthday girls...mommy loves you.**

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

It's a Party!!

Just dropped by to show you the girls' b-day party invitations I made. Not my best, but I kinda did them in a hurry. As you can see, its a Mickey Mouse theme party. I'm almost done with the table centerpieces and the all the kids' goodie bags. I'll post pictures soon. They are so excited for the party. All I keep hearing from Ashley is "Birthday party NOW mommy....pleeeease?" So cute.

If I don't get a chance to post again until after Sunday...have a great Easter! Hope that Bunny brings you lots of goodies.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Miss Me?

No, I haven't fallen off the face of the earth! LOL I've been so busy with work, the girls, the puppy, preparing for the girls' b-day party, and oh yeah, dealing with the Blizzard of 2008. THAT was a joy. We had almost 2 feet of snow last weekend. Thank God we had fair warning it was coming and I did all our grocery shopping on Friday night so I pretty much stayed in all weekend. EVERYTHING closed down around 6:00 p.m., which is unusual. Most of the county lost power but we were one of the lucky ones who didn't. My parent's didn't have power for almost two days. Can you imagine?! I'd go nuts. Anyway, I haven't scrapped much or been able to create a freebie, but as soon as things die down around here, I'll be able to crank one out.

This is the only layout I managed to get done. I'm desperately trying to get a decent picture of Ashley, but every picture I take of her, she looks stoned. I'll keep trying and Iwill get one if it kills me. Peace out homies...